Eid Mubarak To You!!!

Ramadan has ended and now it is time to celebrate, Eid is to be happy to give some Eidiya to the children and sometimes adults and most of all to visit or be visited by family and friends...

Happy eid day, Eid mubarak or as we say it Kulu 3aam wa antum bikheir...

HOMESICK not anymore.

homesick is:

Acutely longing for one's family or home,depressed or melancholy at being away from home and family.

That is the translation in the free dictionary. but i know better, i know it is a acute sense of lost , a physical challenge to get up in the morning and the only thing that a doctor can't help you with, there is no diagnoses there is no knowing the symptoms, it varies from person to person.

Well, i was in that hole for a year, before I actually acknowledged what I was feeling or more like interpret what i was feeling. One day i wake up and said,"Enough is enough i am going home" well, something along those line..

I am so happy that i done that, i am so happy that i went home like that. Now, I am homesick but it is not a severe as it use to be.. I now know that i can pick my bag and go home so knowing that i have that choice made all the difference in the world...

Hope to go home and spend my old age in peace, peace of mind that is...

Stumble upon life.

You have to have tactics in life, whether it is to plan out, placate or just to navigate through the small hurdles of life. But, what about if tactics aren't your forte? If that is the case than you just stumble around life. it is understandable to want tactics and pre-planning all aspect of life if you are a control freak or you have some sort of compulsive disorder that makes you be organized.

I find that stumbling around life is not such a bad idea, yes you can organize your daily life but I find lifes little imperfections quite attractive, mind you, I also like someone with a plan as long as that plan is flexible. however ones your plan become inflexible and take a life of their own, now that is when I find it hard to follow and disinterest.

Don't get me wrong, I am quite an organized person to some extent, and would never just expect things to fall in to place by their own accord. It is just the pre meditated life that I can't stand. where is the fun in that. if i knew every little thing down to the last detail i would just be so bored. Let me explain where this is coming from.

I had an interview and been asked where would I be in 5 years,(not where would I like to be in 5years). how on earth would I know where I would be in 5 years.

So I asked if they mean, where would i like to be? No. they say, where are you going to be in 5 years? Right! If I knew where i would be in 5 years (meaning i can predict life) surely i wouldn't be here to start with.

Surely I would be smart enough to predict the winning jackpot lottery ticket and have the foresight of winning it. or just be a nerd and predict some sort of nerdy thing that makes me heap loads of cash and make sure i don't sit an interview room with YOU.

Obviously, i didn't say that neither did i use that tone of voice, so, I just said i am hoping to grow career wise with the company and have a mortgage and all that responsible things that responsible middle age people have. Not sure if I nailed that interview but wait and see.

This whole start a new lease of life is sort of getting to me, as Ramadan is hard on it is own, i feel like i am adding to the pressure. Who knows may be i will stumble in to my perfect life, Aaah Right!!!.

YES, I CAN!!!

Maybe the title was a tad bit out there but that is how i feel today, that i can do anything that i set my mind to. I can change my career to a simple, less stressful one, i can continue with my education and i certainly can change my focus from coffee culture to simply green.

Maybe it is the tides that are coming and going my way with a hint of change and the scent of new life, maybe it is the Ramadan mood(detox does give you hallucination), or maybe and just maybe it is because I need a change of life. I already stopped the conception of sugar as i say i would and now the rest have to follow.