HOMESICK not anymore.

homesick is:

Acutely longing for one's family or home,depressed or melancholy at being away from home and family.

That is the translation in the free dictionary. but i know better, i know it is a acute sense of lost , a physical challenge to get up in the morning and the only thing that a doctor can't help you with, there is no diagnoses there is no knowing the symptoms, it varies from person to person.

Well, i was in that hole for a year, before I actually acknowledged what I was feeling or more like interpret what i was feeling. One day i wake up and said,"Enough is enough i am going home" well, something along those line..

I am so happy that i done that, i am so happy that i went home like that. Now, I am homesick but it is not a severe as it use to be.. I now know that i can pick my bag and go home so knowing that i have that choice made all the difference in the world...

Hope to go home and spend my old age in peace, peace of mind that is...

Stumble upon life.

You have to have tactics in life, whether it is to plan out, placate or just to navigate through the small hurdles of life. But, what about if tactics aren't your forte? If that is the case than you just stumble around life. it is understandable to want tactics and pre-planning all aspect of life if you are a control freak or you have some sort of compulsive disorder that makes you be organized.

I find that stumbling around life is not such a bad idea, yes you can organize your daily life but I find lifes little imperfections quite attractive, mind you, I also like someone with a plan as long as that plan is flexible. however ones your plan become inflexible and take a life of their own, now that is when I find it hard to follow and disinterest.

Don't get me wrong, I am quite an organized person to some extent, and would never just expect things to fall in to place by their own accord. It is just the pre meditated life that I can't stand. where is the fun in that. if i knew every little thing down to the last detail i would just be so bored. Let me explain where this is coming from.

I had an interview and been asked where would I be in 5 years,(not where would I like to be in 5years). how on earth would I know where I would be in 5 years.

So I asked if they mean, where would i like to be? No. they say, where are you going to be in 5 years? Right! If I knew where i would be in 5 years (meaning i can predict life) surely i wouldn't be here to start with.

Surely I would be smart enough to predict the winning jackpot lottery ticket and have the foresight of winning it. or just be a nerd and predict some sort of nerdy thing that makes me heap loads of cash and make sure i don't sit an interview room with YOU.

Obviously, i didn't say that neither did i use that tone of voice, so, I just said i am hoping to grow career wise with the company and have a mortgage and all that responsible things that responsible middle age people have. Not sure if I nailed that interview but wait and see.

This whole start a new lease of life is sort of getting to me, as Ramadan is hard on it is own, i feel like i am adding to the pressure. Who knows may be i will stumble in to my perfect life, Aaah Right!!!.

YES, I CAN!!!

Maybe the title was a tad bit out there but that is how i feel today, that i can do anything that i set my mind to. I can change my career to a simple, less stressful one, i can continue with my education and i certainly can change my focus from coffee culture to simply green.

Maybe it is the tides that are coming and going my way with a hint of change and the scent of new life, maybe it is the Ramadan mood(detox does give you hallucination), or maybe and just maybe it is because I need a change of life. I already stopped the conception of sugar as i say i would and now the rest have to follow.

HENCE-FORTH!!

I declare to be a Sugar free, Fat free, Hypocrisy free and above all free of materialistic ideology.

Right, where to start?!!!!

I guess, first port of call would be the goody cupboard that stores all the cupcakes and the rest of my quick fixes.

This change, i am hoping, will be reinforced by tomorrows Ramadan start, but I am hoping that it will go beyond Ramadan and become a life style change. Sugar, is playing havoc with my system and it needs to go.

RAMADAN KAREEM!!!

You can never be too ready for Ramadan. You do all your shopping and get ready with the list of who to invite for Iftar, get all the spring cleaning done(spring cleaning for Muslims is days before Ramadan and Before any other Eid) and change the curtains.

However, when you think you have done all you could you found out that there is more and more and more to do. Aaarrrrrrggggg. Well, getting the worst Flu of all time doesn't help.

Though, this is tiresome, I am immensely enjoying it. you get ready for this and even if things don't go as they should, it is still the best time ever, Ramadan makes you better human.

Cooking old recipes that has been past down by your mother and her mother and so on so forth, and also finding new exciting way of cooking Ingredients that are familiar in to a new recipes.

This is the Month we all hope to be a better Muslims but also hope that, in the way, we lose some weight, shamefully thought you are more likely to gain weight in Ramadan than lose it. It is all about the fry ups and the sugar rush we give our self in attempt to get energy.

well, no fry ups for me this Ramadan, and no sugar rush. we are also as a family cutting the portions, this is not only for a dietary reason but we figure out that if we spend less on food it will be more on charity(watch us fight over the leftovers hehehehe).

what sets this Ramadan apart from the previous ones is that in this Ramadan if you are a Somali you have the added responsibility to help your people that are in Somalia and part of East Africa which is officially declared the worst humanitarian crises in the world.

Helping others(this time your people) is a rewarding experience and will take Ramadan to a whole new dimension, if you haven't planned to do so, please do it now, for Ramadan is the best month for Sadaqa(charity).

Here is a refreshing drink that may help you with much needed fluid.

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN A FARMER CAN'T FEED HIS FAMILY?

This is all too familiar picture across Somalia today, Livestock farmers are losing their livelihood to the worst drought in the world.

Nomad sitting next to his dead camel.
A farmer struggling to plow his ones fertile land.
Simply dead livestock.

This Drought started 2 years ago, the Nomads of Somalia had been living with this for the past two years. Yes, it just got worst but bottom of line it was there all alone.

The war in central and southern Somalia is making the drought even more deadlier. The people that are today in danger of dyeing due to starvation are actually the farmers of the nation, whether they are the crop grower of the south or the livestock farmers of the central.

So, what happens when a farmer can't feed his family?

The Simple answer to that is they(the farmers family) starve, but this is the bread-makers of the nation so the answer is the nation starves.

There is no turning to the land it is dry and dead, there is no turning to the nomads they lost most of their stock and are struggling to feed their family, there is no turning to the sea it is infested with pirates and war-ships.

So,where to turn?

It is a shame that we the diaspora have to live with and take responsibility, it is a shame that the Somali government have to live with and take responsibility for.

The cries of the Somali children in and out of Somalia are deafening to those who are listening for others it is just a minute of oooh that is so bad.
The sad thing is, this is the worst humanitarian crises but not the last,until we find some sort of stability we are doomed to be a tragedy to be reported and studied.

Help must come from us, the Somali people. yes, we need the help of everyone that can help us. However, as it is the tradition or use to be the tradition of our believe HELP YOURSELF , SO ALLAH MAY HELP YOU. We need to help our people and stand for those too weak to do so.

This is our wake up call, all hands on the deck.

Please help our brothers and sisters, so may Allah help you!!!

Stories of new arrivals Dadaab with English subtitle

this is so shameful. it is a shame to me, to my fellow country men that can afford to feed one person and to the Government of Somalia...